Tuesday, January 20, 2009
JING THIS BLOG IS NOT DEAD!
here's the post...
been freakin busy the past few days.. average of let's see.. 2 hours of sleep every night? plus falling asleep infront of the lappy.. investiture 2009 really has like LOADS OF THINGS TO DO.. omg DECO DECO!!!!!!
sigh. there's stupid prep PREP chem paper tomorrow.. everyone except one failed and i haven't started studying AT ALL now.. omg.. GG!!
so many things cramping up.. feeling real useless and incompetent.. why doesn't anything that i ever do go right? there's always flaws here and there.. did i not look at the bigger picture and think? or is it just my god damn ass fate that's this unlucky that something always goes wrong.. commitments and schoolwork never seem to balance out well.. there's just so many things to be done and even if it was done, nothing ever is right.. even if it's done nothing is ever satisfactory or it will just be seen as totally crap work.. i dun have the capabilities to live up to the expectations.. neither are my feelings well sorted out and ready to go..
nothing seems to be right.. nothing even seems to GO right.
why can't anything i do ever stop swerving to the side track and actually go straight? is it so difficult for things to actually go right. so difficult for ME to actually finally do something bloody right for once?
the final conclusion?
i'm just useless.
i flew away@ 11:09:00 PM