Friday, July 3, 2009
CAN UR JUST STOP THIS GUILT TREATMENT ON ME.
I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE.
DO U WANT TO LIKE SEE ME POP ANOTHER FEW HUNDRED PILLS DOWN. KILL MYSELF. DIE INFRONT OF YOU AND THEN U PPL ARE CAREFREE AND HAPPY?????
DO U WAN'T ME TO LIKE DIE. MAYBE THIS WORLD WILL BE SO MUCH MORE HAPPIER WITHOUT ME AROUND.
MAYBE I'M NOT EVEN SUPPOSE TO BE ON THIS EARTH.
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DIE.
THAT'LL MAKE EVERYONE HAPPIER RIGHT?
PPL DUN NEED TO BE WORRIED ABOUT ME OR ANYTHING.
U PPL CAN GO ABOUT DOING WHATEVER U GUYS WANNA DO.
U PPL CAN GO ABOUT YOUR OWN LIVES AND PRETEND THAT I TOTALLY DO NOT EXIST.
I DUN HAVE THE RIGHT TO LIVE ANYMORE.
MY LIVE IS LIKE TOTALLY CONTROLLED BY U PPL RIGHT?
I'M JUST SOME PAWN THAT IS TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROL AND I'M WRECKED HEADED AND I NEED TO BE FIXED RIGHT?
THERE'S LIKE JUST SO MANY THINGS WRONG ABOUT ME THAT I'LL DIE ANY MOMENT OR SOMETHING.
YES.
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DIE.
THAT'LL GRANT UR WISHES RIGHT?
U DUN HAVE TO BEAT AROUND THE BUSH TO TELL ME THAT SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH ME.
I NOE AND I'M FULLY AWARE OF IT.
IT'S MY BODY NOT URS. WHO THE HELL UNDERSTANDS IT BETTER?
YEAH U NOE I FEEL DAMN FREAKIN GUILTY FOR BRINGING ALL THESE TROUBLE TO EVERYONE.
SO DON'T TRY TO JUST MAKE ME EVEN MORE GUILTY.
SEEING ME DIE REALLY MAKES U PPL SO MUCH MORE HAPPIER ISSIT?
SO I SHOULD JUST DIE.
YEAH.
THAT'S THE BEST IDEA.
YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE EVEN RISKED UR LIFE TO GIVE BIRTH TO ME IN THE FIRST PLACE.
I'M NOT WORTH IT.
I'M JUST A PROBLEM
A TORN.
SOMETHING THAT'S NOT EVEN WORTH LIVING.
I SHOULD JUST DIE.
i flew away@ 8:40:00 PM
CAN UR JUST GET THE FUCK OF ME AND STOP MAKING ME DO ALL THIS.
STOP THESE FREAKIN UNDERHAND METHODS.
IT'S GETTING FUCKING IRRITATING.
I HATE IT. IF U WANT TO DO IT JUST TELL ME AND MAYBE I'LL CONSIDER DOING IT OR SOMETHING BUT THESE FREAKIN UNDERHAND METHODS ARE DUMB.
I'M NOT SOME 3 YEAR OLD KID WHO'S BLIND AND DEATH. SORRY TO INFORM U BUT I'M FREAKIN SENSITIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE AND U GUYS ARE JUST DAMN FREAKIN OBVIOUS.
SO STOP IT BEFORE I GET PISSED.
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD YOU TO JUST GET OFF IT AND I DON'T WANNA DO THIS. IT'S DAMN IRRITATING WHEN U PPL JUST DUN GET THE HELL WHAT I MEANT TO JUST GET OF FOR FUCKING SAKE!
SO JUST GET THE HELL OF MY BACK AND STOP FORCING ME TO DO THINGS THAT I FUCKING DON'T WANNA DO. LEAVE ME ALONE. IT'S NOT LIKE I'LL GET THE HELL WELL AFTER THIS OR SOMETHING. SO GET OFF AND STOP MAKING ME LOOK LIKE SOME IDIOTIC DUMB GIRL.
sorry for being so damn vulgar.
i flew away@ 8:17:00 PM