Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I'm still alive and kicking so don't worry guys. Life's bad but it's still going(:
i flew away@ 10:20:00 PM
Friday, July 3, 2009
CAN UR JUST STOP THIS GUILT TREATMENT ON ME.
I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE.
DO U WANT TO LIKE SEE ME POP ANOTHER FEW HUNDRED PILLS DOWN. KILL MYSELF. DIE INFRONT OF YOU AND THEN U PPL ARE CAREFREE AND HAPPY?????
DO U WAN'T ME TO LIKE DIE. MAYBE THIS WORLD WILL BE SO MUCH MORE HAPPIER WITHOUT ME AROUND.
MAYBE I'M NOT EVEN SUPPOSE TO BE ON THIS EARTH.
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DIE.
THAT'LL MAKE EVERYONE HAPPIER RIGHT?
PPL DUN NEED TO BE WORRIED ABOUT ME OR ANYTHING.
U PPL CAN GO ABOUT DOING WHATEVER U GUYS WANNA DO.
U PPL CAN GO ABOUT YOUR OWN LIVES AND PRETEND THAT I TOTALLY DO NOT EXIST.
I DUN HAVE THE RIGHT TO LIVE ANYMORE.
MY LIVE IS LIKE TOTALLY CONTROLLED BY U PPL RIGHT?
I'M JUST SOME PAWN THAT IS TOTALLY OUT OF CONTROL AND I'M WRECKED HEADED AND I NEED TO BE FIXED RIGHT?
THERE'S LIKE JUST SO MANY THINGS WRONG ABOUT ME THAT I'LL DIE ANY MOMENT OR SOMETHING.
YES.
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST DIE.
THAT'LL GRANT UR WISHES RIGHT?
U DUN HAVE TO BEAT AROUND THE BUSH TO TELL ME THAT SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH ME.
I NOE AND I'M FULLY AWARE OF IT.
IT'S MY BODY NOT URS. WHO THE HELL UNDERSTANDS IT BETTER?
YEAH U NOE I FEEL DAMN FREAKIN GUILTY FOR BRINGING ALL THESE TROUBLE TO EVERYONE.
SO DON'T TRY TO JUST MAKE ME EVEN MORE GUILTY.
SEEING ME DIE REALLY MAKES U PPL SO MUCH MORE HAPPIER ISSIT?
SO I SHOULD JUST DIE.
YEAH.
THAT'S THE BEST IDEA.
YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE EVEN RISKED UR LIFE TO GIVE BIRTH TO ME IN THE FIRST PLACE.
I'M NOT WORTH IT.
I'M JUST A PROBLEM
A TORN.
SOMETHING THAT'S NOT EVEN WORTH LIVING.
I SHOULD JUST DIE.
i flew away@ 8:40:00 PM
CAN UR JUST GET THE FUCK OF ME AND STOP MAKING ME DO ALL THIS.
STOP THESE FREAKIN UNDERHAND METHODS.
IT'S GETTING FUCKING IRRITATING.
I HATE IT. IF U WANT TO DO IT JUST TELL ME AND MAYBE I'LL CONSIDER DOING IT OR SOMETHING BUT THESE FREAKIN UNDERHAND METHODS ARE DUMB.
I'M NOT SOME 3 YEAR OLD KID WHO'S BLIND AND DEATH. SORRY TO INFORM U BUT I'M FREAKIN SENSITIVE TO OTHER PEOPLE AND U GUYS ARE JUST DAMN FREAKIN OBVIOUS.
SO STOP IT BEFORE I GET PISSED.
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I TOLD YOU TO JUST GET OFF IT AND I DON'T WANNA DO THIS. IT'S DAMN IRRITATING WHEN U PPL JUST DUN GET THE HELL WHAT I MEANT TO JUST GET OF FOR FUCKING SAKE!
SO JUST GET THE HELL OF MY BACK AND STOP FORCING ME TO DO THINGS THAT I FUCKING DON'T WANNA DO. LEAVE ME ALONE. IT'S NOT LIKE I'LL GET THE HELL WELL AFTER THIS OR SOMETHING. SO GET OFF AND STOP MAKING ME LOOK LIKE SOME IDIOTIC DUMB GIRL.
sorry for being so damn vulgar.
i flew away@ 8:17:00 PM
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Currently stuck at taiwan now.. not really very happy bout it.. but ya..
SORRY WANG YUE AND GRACE!!! UR TABLE MATE WILL BE BACK SOON!!! time being enjoy the empty space in between u too and imagine me there erm talking crap!(:
that's if we haven't changed seats yet...
omg i realised how much holiday homework i'm short of.. thanks wangyue for scanning everything for me><>
taiwans freakin hot here.. food's ok.. erm.. weather sucks.. and WTH I HAVE A DOG AT HOME! omg luh><><
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and one last thing..
MY COUSIN HAS A FREAKIN GIRLFRIEND><
omg luh.. he told me and i was like o.o he's one year younger than me.. and the girl is 2 years younger than me.. apparently i'm suppose to keep it a secret.. oops.. but then again.. my aunt and uncle dun understand english and i doubt anybody has their number apart from my mum..
so there..
my cousin.
omg.
have ta go out for lunch later with my grandparents.. omg luh can't stand them nagging and nagging and nagging.. it just gets so on my nerves><
and for those who need to contact me or anything.. please email me.. apparently my screwed phone totally does not work here in taiwan.. don't think i subscribed to autoroam or anything.. wth.. i'm mobile-phone less.. maybe i should try to buy a phone here or something.. hehe maybe that'll work.. they have LG, SONY and NOKIA here luh><><><
btw tc.. if u want anything here email me ok? i'll try to get it for you><
sigh i shall now prepare to get killed or kill myself later during lunch. goodness i'm getting totally irritated now><
i flew away@ 10:51:00 AM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
been a real long time since i last posted><
well..
life's been the same for me... real boring stupid june holidays.. people should be out there.. either chasing the GSS and buying like crazy.. or hanging around in the bright beautiful and warm sun.
sad to say, i have neither of those.. and instead i'm stuck in this stupid place that u'll never want yourself to land up in><
life's a real bore for me now.. nothing to do..
wait.. actually there's loads to do but it's just so difficult to concentrate and everything..
with everyone asking me when i can get out.. it's really kinda tough to gage that..
GO ASK MY MUM MAN!
she's the one that controls all these crap. it's like really irritating to think that you have a place that you call home, but there's just this stupid padlock there where you dun have the freakin key.. and u see ur mum sitting in the living room watching tv.. occasionally smiling at you to acknowledge your presence OUTSIDE THE FREAKIN DOOR but doing nothing to help you open it at all..
so close yet so far.
and that is like so cliched. argh. why can't i be like 18 now. then i can like sign my own discharge and crap shit.
wth.
i have a home that's called home but it's not like a home at all..
so wat's it suppose to be called?
house?
rented place?
or maybe..
i dun even have a place to stay in the first place.
i flew away@ 1:25:00 PM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
WOAH. it has almost been 2 months since I last posted O_O goodness...
yeah wy.. my blog is dead.
shall revive it for a while.
block tests have FLOWN PAST. omg FINALLY IT IS OVER!!!! got back chem today..
thanks to a bloody K i minused 2 marks away.. woah.. wonderful. itchy fingers me.. LA was sucky.. think i flunked it really badly.. coz ting ting is like talking there and i'm like not listening..
again:p
sigh.. both my pinky toes have no nails currently.. DON'T ASK ME WHY. it hurts leh actually.. sort of got infected and i shall not describe it here as it is very DISGUSTING. but ya.. wore slippers that past two days... got caught by mrs chek who said my slippers was TOO BRIGHT COLOURED and told me to GET A BLACK ONE><>
back to shoes now coz my mum said i should not go around in slippers anymore T.T totally miss the slippers leh! so much more comfortable then stuffy shoes!!!!!!! >.<
BSP camp meeting coming up in like.. wait.. it's tomorrow.. ok... sigh. hope its not going to be suck or horrible or irritating. sigh.
shall be a good girl and return to LA lesson><><
i flew away@ 9:31:00 AM
Thursday, March 12, 2009
just attempted Bio AS 1.2.. total failure i must say.. omg what on earth is GLUT and SGLT? O_O if this is wat's installed for me in JC BIO.. i'm gonna die..
no can't be so pessimistic..
I'M GOING TO SURVIVE!!!!!!!!!
like real.
shall now study for BIO SPA SKILL 3 paper tomorrow.. omg why is my life surrounded by BIO so much lately? gosh.
officially hate LA lessons for now.. total idiotic time spent in the com lab EVERY SINGLE lesson doing expo after expo.. and after all those horrendous remarks from her at jing and the rest.. i officially concluded that i'll fail block test 1 with flying red marks.. haven't seen her yet but i presume my doom is awaiting me tomorrow... there's this looming feeling about it i'm positive she'll pounce on me or something the moment we step into that same old com lab tomorrow..
AHHHHH CHINESE SIA PRESENTATION!!! omg we're the first group tmr >< blah another work for tonight.. rehearse my bloody script!
wait it can't be bloody.. it's written by me.. right..
rehearse my WONDERFUL SCRIPT! jia you amy!!!!!!<3
speakin of amy.. crazy her went to run 10 rounds in the morning today and never ask us to accompany her! goodness.. AMY NEXT TIME YOU GO RUN BETTER CALL ME ALONG!!! I NEED TO TRAIN FOR NAPFA BEFORE I FAIL IT!!!!
let's see.. BIO SPA SKILL 3, CHEM WS 5, PHYSICS AS 15.1, CHINESE SIA PRESENTATION, omg..
what am i doing blogging here? ><
something is severely wrong with me and i need to change this freakin problem that is plagueing me!
stupid checkup results.. shall not talk about it.
HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!
i flew away@ 9:29:00 PM
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
shall post before my blog officially walks down the aisle of history (or whatever the phrase is)
lang arts lesson now.. instead of doing the rites of passage expository we're suppose to do i'm like rotting and blogging.. shall go google my rites of passage and find out the definition first(:
updates.. GRACES WAS WONDERFUL!!!! YEAH YEAH! don't you ppl from OBS start saying what OBS was GREAT. yeah of course OBS was great.. NILA UTAMA ROCKS! anyway.. but GRACES WAS BETTER!!!!!! haha was telling stephanie to look out for her Graces as it's like a total eat all you can buffet full day! omg la.. the food is OMG PLENTIFUL! you have like 6 meals everyday.. and they give you food like its dropping from heaven or something O_O
k shall not make ppl drool over my post ><
the two dinners were great.. malay extravaganza was like WOAH. kudos to lingo, linghan and cam for wonderful performance.. nice shirt cam =p haha.. Formal dinner was like O_O thanks to ting chih and kang yan for erm flooding me with make up and changing me until stupid mac mac thought i was some new student in the class or something.. I WAN TO KILL HIM!!!! stop thinking bout your vietnamese bride la! shall not post photos since i think everyone has found them on facebook or something..
speaking of facebook.. my account is miraculously not updated or anything yet O_O oops.
all in all.. camp was great.. thanks to those who remembered my birthday and gave me gifts. er yuna urs is O_O i shall endure my reputation from being ruined for bout 1/2 weeks ba.. FOR THE SAKE OF YOU OK!!! haha and erm amy.. i will use urs during halloween and come your house and HAUNT YOU!(: haha and I LOVE THE TIGGER DAR DAR<3 it's so CUTE.. and stupid sandy tan still wanted to pok something through it O_O of course thanks for the CUTE WINNIE THE POOH that erm looks like me YIMENG<3<3<3<3 THANKS!
went by mt. elizabeth with my bro and mum for some stupid checkup.. shall not say anything bout it and now my parents are totally fretting over me O_O dumb taxi driver brought us to GLENEAGLES instead of MT ELIZABETH at first... wat the.. i was like ><>< but then again..
thereafter travelled to taka to buy some i oso dunno what.. bird nest i tink.. dunno la.. and tried some liquor ice cream.. mum ordered orange with dunno what.. dark choco ba.. tasted great.. the liqour wasn't very strong but it's nice.. tried some stupid bread.. ate one month and threw it out.. TOTALLY FLOODED BY BUTTER! omg la.. one bite and ur mouth is filled with butter O_O
though the bread texture was not bad la(:
then had i dunno wat..
so there goes my beautiful rainy holiday.
my bro's BMI is like in the moderate risk section O_O wth. SHALL FORCE HIM TO CLIMB STAIRS EVERYDAY FROM NOW ONWARDS! haha goal of the year!!!!!!!!!
blah another 10 more minutes to end of school and start of cca..
wait.. i have chinese remedial to finish a stupid zuowen which i have no idea how to do.
GREAT..
shall return to rites of passage now..
AHHHHHH BIO SIA PROPOSAL DRAFT!!!!! shit.
i flew away@ 2:16:00 PM
Friday, February 20, 2009
just don't seem to fit in anywhere.
there's just no place in this world that i can actuall find solace in. wait.. no solace..
not a single place that i can actually fit in..
no matter how cliched it might sound.
it's no bolt, nut, screw or whatever.
there's just nowhere i stand, or sit or appear.
alone.
the anti-social bystander that's forgotten and ignored.
i flew away@ 8:31:00 PM
Monday, February 9, 2009
k.. found 2 GAY vitas videos.. no offense.. his voice is like WOAH but hs actions are like O_O
first one:
second one:
your verdict(:
i flew away@ 11:27:00 PM